|Even though i appreaciate everything people here do - faves, comments, waches! Thank you in advance for anyone who decides to throw in a few cents!!|
I'm just an ordinary girl, having huge dreams. Crazy about everything Japan. and creating weird apparel once in a while....|
I do lots of things: photograph, make acessories, clothes, nail art, traditional drawings and painting, fashion illustration, photomanipulations etc.
Favourite genre of music: j-rock/pop
Favourite style of art: photomanipulating, painting, drawing, photography
If you need to contact me in some way, do it over here or e-mail me at firstname.lastname@example.org
I think even in photo manipulating, i might have the skills but i've got no imagination. They are just pretty pictures, nothing else.
I used to draw a lot back in the day, but then i discovered photo manipulation and i completely forgot it. I wasn't very good to begin with. I've done six years in a so called "art school" but they literally taught me NOTHING. Like i cannot draw a realistic human figure to save my life. College wasn't helpful either, i mean what can you learn when you only draw still life and got no explanation how things work actually? I cannot draw human figure, nor can i do faces, i don't have a clue about anatomy apart from very basic stuff, and i mean REALY basic. And for most of all i'm quite old to leam all of it. Not to mention i wouldn't know where to begin.
My brain doesn't seem to help out either. Like i cannot picture a bloody thing in my mind even if i wanted. It's all blurry and unclear. The lines are broken and some places don't even have them. And if i look at references they just get burned into my mind and i cannot seem to be able to modify them nor take them as a lose guide to do what i want to do. And it's so frustrating.
And then people corne to me and say i have talent... Well if i had one i don't think i'd have these thoughts nor struggles when it comes to creating, because talented people have the feel for things naturally, they don't need to put as much effort into things. There's nothing natural about rne in this, none of it. Maybe i should just stick to photo manipulating and forget about drawing all together...? But even there, my works are rather boring and rnediocre even if i have the technique somewhat down.
It's frustrating. The worst thing is i don't even want to try anymore. *sigh*